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"Berakhirlah sudah,

Kisah kita dalam percintaan,

Yang menyakitkan,

Pengorbanan ku selama ini,

Hanya sia-sia.

Cinta ku pada mu,

Begitu dalam, di lubuk hati ku,

Benar sungguh-sungguh,

Namun semua hancur,

Dengan permainan dan sandiwara mu.

Hari-hari ku sepi selalu,

Bila terkenangkan saat bersamamu,

Tapi itu semua tak akan kembali,

Selama-lamanya..."

This truly explain my feelings right now. Looks like faith doesn't side with us in this relationship. Maybe it's God ways of saying we are not meant for each other. Thank you for being there for me. I had a blast being with you and loving you all the way 'till the end. I hope one fine day, you will find someone better than me. I had given you time, love, loyalty and I wish I could do more for you to see how much you mean to me. It's okay. I'm a big girl. I can handle the pain. I am grateful to have met and know you. And to have love and being loved by you.

It's hard. I can't lie to myself that I had been crying my eyes out and thinking this is unfair. Love is non-judgemental, but people are. I had blame the world. But now, I can only blame myself for putting to high a risk and I finally fall hard to reality that dreams will never come true. I watch one by one my dreams broke to pieces and stabbing me back.

But hey, who cares right?

It's my own fault.

I just hope it's not too late to hold back some of the dreams. It's time I face reality and stop living in fantasy. I wish it didn't turn out like this but this is reality and I will face it with respect and dignity (if I still have some)

I wish you the best in life and afterlife. I'm sorry it didn't work out for us, but I hope one day you will find someone to love you as much as I love you (or maybe more). Good luck. I'll miss you.

"Satu hari nanti bila kau bertemu,

Dengan seorang kekasih baru mu,

Janganlah sekali sakiti hatinya,

Seperti diriku.

Kini tiada lagi tinggal kenangan,

Saat bersama mu akan ku rindui,

Air mata ku mengalir di pipi,

Aku menangis."